|Holding Riley after she was stillborn|
|Our Wedding Night|
After trying to conceive for the first five months of our marriage we finally saw those two pink lines again. This time we weren't scared....we were thrilled because we were finally in a place in our lives where we were ready to become parents. Our relationship had drastically improved during the three years between our second loss and when we got married. We were ready to bring a new life into our relationship and truly thought because we were a healthier couple, and because we were treating my genetic disorder just how the doctors recommended, that we would never experience another loss. But that's not how loss works. It doesn't chose people because of how unstable their relationship is, how young the parents are, or how financially broke the couple happens to be. And sometimes what you think caused your previous losses isn't what really caused them, or at least isn't the only thing that caused them.
|Pregnancy # 3|
We decided we would try the IVF route if we were selected for a grant through Baby Quest Foundation which I had found online one night out of desperation to figure out how in the world we could afford a $25,000 procedure to prevent future heart break. When we weren't selected as grant recipients we felt our only option was to try one more time on our own. In a way...I was almost relieved that this was our only option. I wasn't ready to try such a drastic procedure and choosing a baby based on genetics just wasn't sitting right in my heart.
|Pregnancy # 4|
|First IVF Embryo Transfer|
|Visiting New York|
|Egg Donor Retrieval Day|
|Second Embryo Transfer Day|
This pregnancy hasn't been uncomplicated. I experienced bleeding a couple times in the first few weeks. At 20 weeks we were told the baby's umbilical cord was not attached in the proper spot on the placenta and could lead to growth problems. I was seen every three weeks up until 32 weeks and then twice a week after that. But this has certainly been the best pregnancy I've ever had and has helped me regain confidence in my body. I've loved every minute of carrying our son within me, feeling him kicking, hearing his heart beating, and watching us both grow together. He's such an overcomber already....measuring at 40 weeks today and a whopping 8lbs 3 oz with still a week to go before we force him out of me. We have a scheduled induction at 4:00pm on Friday, August 7th unless little man decides to grace us with his presence before then. Mommy and Daddy are sure hoping he does, after three years in the making....we can't wait to count fingers and toes and kiss his cute little nose!